It’s been a bit since I last posted and I can’t say that my last posting was all that upbeat. I without a doubt have bad days, and in my writing it projects itself 10 fold.
But! New day, new post, new mindset. Taking it day by day is the way I do life.
Since my last update, I’ve lost people, gained people, started a few new projects as well.
First one is that I’ve started streaming on Twitch. I do a talk show every week with my sister. And I also do solo streaming myself. Today will be my first solo stream so I’m kinda nervous, but also excited to try something new. And to push myself to learn a new skill.
Second has to do with my writing work. I’ve started 2 stories recently, one I wanna turn into a bi-weekly series if I can. Assuming it gets enough attention. Ill still write it though just maybe not as fast. But doing it bi-weekly would light a fire under my ass to write more. And it’s been a while since I’ve done story work like this.
I’ll do my best to post the first bit of that story tonight. I just have to use my voice to text ability to copy it from the screenshots I luckily took of it, since my damn writing program decided to spaz out on me.
Trying to make a schedule for myself is quite a challenge since I don’t know how I’ll be feeling that day. But, I do want to strive to achieve 3 things in one day that I choose first thing when I wake up. Whether it be to work on my eBay stores, take a shower, clean a certain area, or post/stream. Anything to make me feel accomplished at the end of the day. I think it’ll boost my self confidence and drive to be more personally fulfilling in my life. Which I am very much lacking in.
My goals for today are-
Take a shower
Stream my first time
Post to my blog/tumblr/IG
I’m already working on one right now. : ) Even though I’m tired and the weather is a gray rainy day.
For anyone like me who suffers from depression, lack of confidence, and low to no self esteem, trying this method might help you as well.
After I do this for a week, I’ll post how my outlook has changed and if it helped me.
Most days, I feel like I just go through the program in my head that I have ingrained in my brain. I never finish anything, or create anything, or fix anything, I just run on autopilot. It just keeps your overall outlook on yourself down in the gutter. You feel like a failure. Like, “how is everyone around me living their lives so well, and I’ve got nearly nothing to show for my week, or month, or hell 6 months?”
I want things to be better, and I’m the only one who can make a lasting change. It’s gotta come from within.
Sure some days will be a let down or I’ll feel super terrible, but that’s just how it goes. And you can’t be hard on yourself because of it.
One of my favorite quotes of all time is-
“Nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain’t about how hard you hit. It’s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward.” – Rocky
You’ve made it this far, don’t you let things you can’t control keep you down.
So for now, I’ll leave it with- “That’s how winning is done!”